words.. promises.. regrets..

im the type of man who often says something that i dont really meant, then those words were turn to be a promises,even though those promises doesn't even make sense.. and it hurts me every time on full filling it.. Sometimes i say something that i really regret, my brains doesn't react well to the situation that it pops out the idea of making a promise just to make an impact of the day.. now, only regrets blanketing myself..

Flashbacks.. the unpleasant memories

Lately (probably a month or two ), my brain keeps spinning from this unpleasant thought of memories of the past or should i say flashbacks.The memories of the past that has been filled with variety of meaning through the old days, the significant point of image happened at the certain time and place that this brain cought up and to be collected and translated as the data of the memories and transferred to the brain and occurs as the image of thought. This flashback filled with many of my past story, from sad to joy. This thing's of flashback is messing with my mind,and sometimes spoiling with my mood.I dont know for sure what i am going through right now, but this flashback that happened made me depressed. Its about  my past that im not proud, my life isnt that developed and filled with darkness and misbehave from the past, and it haunts me often. 

Im the writer,and im the only reader's

My blog is what i like to put as a low profile buried deep under the sea,i'm not intent to promote my blog on increasing the number's of viewer,because im not that glamourous wanna be person who seeks for popularity,i just act this blog as my life jurnal or perhaps the way i release my tension or bored feelings,.I'm the creator of this blog and wanted to express my fullest gratitude to the readers,my readers,probably be only me who read this crap,,although i said earlier that i dont have the intention of expanding my viewers,it would be kind of fun and interesting if theres even a readers who willing to take their time reading this stuff and then shows some responds so that i know there is a reader outside,it would be fun actually having to interact with the person's who read's my stuff..

Is it a nightmare?or im having a nonsensical thought??

Things started when everything were messed up in the days,probably a weeks or it had reached a few months ago,but who's counting..the issues is all about having trouble coping with someone due to the certain things which i will speak of..i'll describe u the things that happened in my own words and terms,because i feel like by making a clarity on the situation by refering to the subject of who's fault it is or who is the cause of it,doesnt seems to be fair,,so i intend to blur the thinking by hiding the picture of exact situation and only just to show the motives of the person which i spoke earlier.
The situation is really about some of the person characteristic which a part of me just doesnt like and having to be with that person for a certain and long time that is 1 and a half year together is just a terible nightmare for me.On the reality is there's no problems exist between me and him,because i've known him very well and we were fine together,,but it just that realising his bad side of characteristic made me felt like i dont want to be close to him no more,im not that judgemental person but when u bare that atitude of yours which i will not describe, makes me feel bitter in side,,so i hope that he realise of his action and atleast try to change..

I felt like making an entry,and so i had done..

It felt so long,and very long and probably ages since i made the last entry.So,this is a comback to it just to satisfied the feeling of bored.In todays post,im gonna write about some random stuffs thats been going on in my head like the usual entry,probably all of it,i dont think im a wide view kind of writer's like usual people who own a blog,because im limited to my idea of thinking, limited to my words of speech,and probably limited to my narrow of perception,easy saying is im not that smart ok.But im trying to be one,by pushing my brain's harder on this entry,as if im making an essay for the exam,haha..i dont write that much see,thats why everything i had write is something childish to be thought of..and one other reason is i dont read that much too,im limited to my knowledge,i dont know stuffsss like other men does..Im a childish person who lives in an adult body,how i wish i know a lot about the knowledge of economics,politics and philosophy,and through it what diffrentiate the degree of a man's knowledge.Todays world is a competitive world we're living,the people's get smarter everyday..
But actually,on top of all that,the real aspect what defines a man is not just the knowledge only,its about the atitude,,.bla3....i think im going to stop right about here,i dont think my writing is that interesting to keep on,heyy theres nothing im trying to proof ok,,i just felt bored and felt like writing stuffs thats all whats really going on..ok bye reader's,as if u read my entry,or even found my blog..